Ah, fuck it.

I hate my parents, I hate my house, I hate this damned decision I made all of the sudden to make my parents happy, what the hell was I even thinking, I am me goddamn it! And I'm so tired of them wanting to get into my life!!!!

I know I won't be studying next semester, I alone said I'd get a job while I waited for the year to start, ah, so now, my parents want to choose the job I'll be going to :3 "Hey, why don't you work at McDonald's, it's a nice place to work, with young people, and all" I answered: "'Cause I don't fucking want to, I'll get my fucking job alone, don't mess with me."
My dad got mad and started cursing, my mom told me they HAD to help me since I always mess up in what I choose, well, haven't they thought it's because they're always messing with my head so I choose what they want?

I'm sick of living like this, I broke the strings that had me attached to them and now, seems things are getting worse. A whole semester seems a long time, a very, very long time. Why can't I just make them dissapear? They'll end up killing me for every goddamn thing they say just pisses me off even more.
Oh yes, too early to be on DA? I was supossed to enter at 8, but I don't know what damn "cable" got crossed in my dad's head and here I am, waiting at the cold (yeah, it's chilly and I don't feel so well), hungry and pissed off.
I'll end up killing someone one of this days... I feel really closer to it every day : D
Only damn saturdays are worth living this shit.
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The Unforgiven - Metallica

New blood joins this earth
And quickly he's subdued
Through constant pained disgrace
The young boy learns their rules

With time the child draws in
This whipping boy done wrong
Deprived of all his thoughts
The young man struggles on and on he's known
A vow unto his own
That never from this day
His will they'll take away-eay

What I've felt
What I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown
Never be
Never see
Won't see what might have been
What I've felt
What I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown
Never free
Never me
So I dub thee UNFORGIVEN

They dedicate their lives
To RUNNING all of his
He tries to please THEM all
This bitter man he is
Throughout his life the same
He's battled constantly
This fight he cannot win
A tired man they see no longer cares
The old man then prepares
To die regretfully
That old man here is me

What I've felt
What I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown
Never be
Never see
Won't see what might have been
What I've felt
What I've known
Never shined through in what I've shown
Never free
Never me
So I dub thee UNFORGIVEN

Never Free
Never Me
So I dub thee UNFORGIVEN
You labeled me
I'll label you
So I dub thee UNFORGIVEN
Never Free
Never Me
So I dub thee UNFORGIVEN
You labeled me
I'll label you
So I dub thee UNFORGIVEN
Never Free
Never Me
So I dub thee UNFORGIVEN